week 13, day 3 (of rest and mental agony)

So I'm really trying not to be negative, but the unknown is absolutely killing me!  While I can not wait to get to PT tomorrow morning, I am scared for what he has to say.  I keep reading about achilles tendonitis and recovery - it does not look good at all.  It's really scaring the crap out of me!  The funny thing is that I don't even know if that's really what it is yet.  I've only been to my primary doc and all he did was look at my tendon, squeeze it and roll my ankle around.  Clearly he is not a specialist in achilles tendonitis, so I shouldn't be so worked up!  Ha, that's way easier said than done.  It's not even anymore about being unable to complete the marathon, it's more about the chance that I may not be able to run anymore period!  I love running.  I seriously don't know what I would do if I couldn't run.  I know, I know calm down, be patient and wait until you see what the PT says!  I am a firm believer that God has a plan.  You'd think this would help me let things go better than I do, but no, instead I over analyze everything!  Anyway today's day of rest went well.  I pretty much felt the same as I did yesterday.  I could walk with little pain, however going up and down stairs seemed to be more manageable.  Here's to prayers that my PT has the knowledge to help me recover!  Meanwhile, I'll be dreaming of running...

304/448 miles complete!