A simple blog about training for my first encounter with the 26.2 mile monster (as a first time mommy).
Thursday, June 23, 2011
random thoughts
So I've had a lot of time on my hands lately since school has been out. I have been doing a lot of thinking...too much thinking. Even though it is officially summer vacation I still don't feel like it is. Just like I never felt like it was the end of the school year. I've never felt like this before. Maybe it's because I have made an effort to continue getting up early (at least before 8, except for T/Th - I've been getting up to continue to go to group power at 5:30). This week I've had a lot of time to myself since Brent and most of my friends work. I've thought a lot about how much I have to be thankful for, I've thought a lot about getting up off the couch to do some housework, I've thought a lot about food and eating, I've thought a lot about what my body looked like this time last year (10 days before my wedding). I know that body is unrealistic to maintain for life - that is if I want to enjoy life...I love to eat all kinds of food! As I get closer to 30 I have def noticed a change in my body. I am carrying weight in different places and I am definitely getting softer. Instead of dwelling on these negative feelings I am striving to have a healthy life style. I've also thought a lot about the fact that I feel sad for no reason at all. I have Jesus as my savior, an amazing husband, an awesome family, fabulous friends and a great job. Why would I feel down? So the last couple of days I've really been focusing on the positive and I am feeling a lot better. I've gotten a lot done around the house, I've been concentrating on eating balanced and I've increased the amount of time I spend working out as well as adding new workouts. I've been doing some P90X, group power, the elliptical, the stepper and I've continued running. I don't really have a set schedule, which is actually nice. I just do whatever workout I feel like doing that day. Running is the only one I have to think more about, just because I don't want to push it. My ankle has really been bothering me and my achilles has felt really tight. In fact on Monday when I was running I had only run 2 miles when I had to stop and stretch because it was bothering me so much. However, after I stretched I was able to run 2 more miles. I have yet to get passed 5 miles (I ran for 60 minutes once). Needless to stay it has bothered me so much I went to the doctor yesterday. He suggested an MRI so that's where I'm headed tomorrow. Since I am planning on running a half marathon in September and would really like to try training again for a marathon I want to make sure there is nothing major going on with my foot. I don't want to be stupid again. I need peace of my mind. With that being said I'm trying very hard to stay positive. This morning I began to think "Ok, so what am I going to do when my doctor says I can no longer run?" Yea, no those thoughts are not helpful! I am going to pray about it and go in with an open mind. Only God knows what tomorrow holds.
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i have to agree that the body i had for my wedding day is so unrealistic for me... and i would be miserable if i tried to maintain it!
ReplyDeleteand i love your "try not to dwell on negative feelings"... it is so true!!!